It's overrr..!

I have finaaaaaaaaaally finished my final project, I can't believe it!! I have been working on it for about four months O_o. I still have to present it on Saturday and TADA no more projects and going to the college. Though I'm still thinking of completing my study. I don't know but I just feel if I stopped for a year I would not have the enthusiasm to go to the university again!! I'm confused :/
I will ask about the major I'm interested in and will pray el est5ara. I don't want to end up regretting my decision.

Aside from that, tomorrow is my birthday, I'm turning t-w-e-n-t-y t-h-r-e-e hehe am so excited, I except any e-cards or comments on my blog or email lol ^-^

Recently, I have been so weak. I mean I feel dizzy all the time. Everybody is telling me that I lost weight. I'm also not sleeping well. I know the reasons but I can't help not thinking of what I did and what I still have to do. Although I plan for everything and I MEAN every little detail but I'm always afraid that I won't get things done on time. I think my head is going to explode at the end lol cuz seriously I'm tired of worrying about my study+wedding+preparations+my new life. I have bought some vitamins from the pharmacy cuz I don't eat well. I have talked to mum and asked her how can I change this thing in me!! She said it's difficult cuz it's '6eb3' fini but once everything ends I will be back to the normal crystal. As she said it is a good thing cuz I finish everything on time :/

Pleaaaaaaaaase pray for me, I might not be able to update but if anything excited happens I will tell you guys about it ;P

I'm going to a place that is FUNNNNNNNNNNN today, I will try to snap some pictures :D

Career Fair

I enjoyed our trip to the career fair at Dubai Trade Center. It was nice to see my classmates after such a long time. We were blabbering without stoping for a second lol. Each one of us was talking about their internship. There were some students who did not like the places they are working in and others did actually LOVED it. I guess nothing left and we will say goodbye to our university =)

I loved this idea created by Tanmia. We were excited about it and placed it on our arms hehe.

You should have seen mashallah the amount of students who came for the first day. I was wondering where these people will work!! I saw Sheikh Mohammed but I couldn't take a pic of him :/. Some companies were like okay get us your CV and GO AWAY! lol but others were welcoming us and giving us a breif description about the company and what it does. As always I was the first one who talks in our group and they were pushing me for every company we pass by. That is the problem for being a leader ;P. Until now nobody have contacted me, maybe it is still earlier as they need time to look through our papers.

I have seen like three or four girls who I have not seen for SUCH a long time. I got many hugs that day lol. It is really nice to meet them again. xoxoxo

I have been sick for the last couple of days. I do not know what is wrong with me! I can't eat and I'm always weak. I guess it is because I worry a lot about my final project and my wedding plus being frustrated every single day from the traffic I HATE IT!

okay enough talking I should get a nice sleep now Zzzz. Good night everybody =)

isn't that kayooot! But I would never touch it lol

My day

I did mention in my last post about an event is coming up soon and I believe some of you guys have guessed it. Yes it is my wedding. I decided to write about it after I found the countdown bar that you can notice at the beginning of the blog. As much as I sound excited, believe me I have gone through hard times while preparing for it. There were times were I cried not wanting it to happen. That was at the beginning where I still didn't know my hubby well. We have waited for so long as I wanted to finish my study first. Almost two years and a half! I believe marriage is not all about love, it is a big responsibility and you don't discover that until both of you live together. Love indeed is essential but it requires a lot more. I'm still anxious about my new life. I have been told that I don't look excited for my wedding lol maybe I don't show how do I feel about it 'rolleyes'. It starts to get more beautiful once you get to know each other well. I'm sure there are a lot more that I don't know about him.

I skipped the university today lol. I didn't feel like going. I feel useless ugh. I hate doing that but you know when you wake up early you feel like I want to sleep more. You decide not to go and after you get a long nice sleep you regret it hehe. I have to go tomorrow there is a trip to the career fair in dubai and who knows I might get more job interviews. Oh btw they called me regarding my first job interview. I said sorry cuz nor my family or my husband were convinced.

My older sister bought this ring for my other younger sister. I loved it. It has all swarovski crytsals. my tiny little niece decided to wear it aww. I don't know why her hand looks 'samra' fdait-ha :P

Befor it is too late!

I don't want to experience the feeling of guilt again for not saying what I truley feel towards the people I love and admire. Two years ago I have been trying to forget what happened, I knew it was too late to think about it because I couldn't bring him to life again. What hurts most is that he left this world and was a little bit angry at me. Actually, at himself and his family. At that moment I couldn't comfort him and say sorry we tried our best and we love you. Next thing I knew is that he left us the next day! I do really regret that but I don't want it to happen again because we have to learn from our mistakes. My mum was a little sick the past two days and I had all the memories refreshed again. What if I lost this precious person "La sama7a allah"! Have I showed her how much I love her and care for her! Have I been the person she always wanted to see! Have I listened to her when she wanted someone to talk to! I still cannot answer these questions. I believe I should take a further step toward my relationship with her. There must be a way to improve it. I don't mean that my relationship with her is very weak but I don't want to say it again "it's too late!". Everytime I feel like saying "I love you mum" or go and give her the tightest hug ever I feel like there are many barriers that I DO want to break. My sister always tells me: 'Do it once and you will find it very easy the next time!'.

--isn't mum wearing the nicest colours ever xoxoxo--

My project is going well il7imdilla. AND the best thing evveerrr is that I have returned to the college to complete my project 'yeppieee' :D. I don't have any classes I just go there and work on it but I should report to the place I worked in every week >_<'.

My preparations for the big event are on the right track. Let's just hope everything gets done on the right time. Stay tuned until I announce it officially 'giggles' ^-^

Nothing like being comofortable and satisfied with your life, family, study and things you have and own. il7imdilla thousands times 3ala ne3met el Islam :)

Say cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese lol

I don't see much of your comments peeps! Or is it a matter of comment on my blog and I will comment on yours ;P!?

I will leave you with these words from Sami Yusuf newest cassette, I was really touched by it

My head is not bare

And you can’t see my covered hair

So you sit there and you stare

And you judge me with your glare

You’re sure I’m in despair

But are you not aware

Under this scarf that I wear

I have feelings, and I do care

So don’t you see?That I’m truly free

This piece of scarf on me

I wear so proudly

To preserve my dignity...My modesty My integrity

So don’t judge me

Open your eyes and see...“Why can’t you just accept me?” she says “Why can’t I just be me?” she says

Time and time again, You speak of democracy

Yet you rob me of my liberty

All I want is equality

Why can’t you just let me be free?

PS: I will miss you :'(

I Miss....

I never thought I would miss the college that much. That day on my way to the university as I had a presentation I remembered all the memories I had with my friends. The first year was the easiest and the lovliest year. Second year was a bit difficult and I lost my brother, BUT I met my hubby. Third year was the most difficult one, I rarely sat with my family, but I can't forget how crazy we were "my classmates and I". We used to skip classess and we have done so many things that I can't believe myself when I remember it lol. Fourth year which is this year, it has been a good one also. My study was getting easier than the third year. There were for sure some bad memories and good ones also. The best one was getting engaged and the worst part is my internship and I can't wait longer to finish it UGH. >_<'

I miss the classes, exams, projects, deadlines. I miss getting worried for the exams. I miss not being able to sleep because I did not finish studying. I miss getting crazy in the class and making all the girls laugh while I remain silent. I miss getting good grades and knowing that my efforts were paid off. I miss having lunch with my classmates....

Will I make it to the end of this road??

I'm happy that I changed many things in myself toward some people :). I don't know why this happens everytime I want to update. Before writing any post I feel like I have so many things to talk about and once I start I forget everything lol. This is weird :P. There was some rain today actually some drops hehe. il7imdilla 3ala kil 7al.