Busy

Thanks for 3soola, عيون الحب, miss fikrah, and adaydreamer for wishing me a happy birthday 'Hugs u tight guys'. I have been extremely busy preparing for the wedding. I lost my temper many times and I have been so emotional. I just pray that the days will pass as fast as possible because I feel like I cannot handle it anymore 'cries'. That doesn't mean I'm not happy bel3aks everytime I think about it a smile draws its lines on my face but it just the not-ending-things I have to do. When you think about it and all these months I have been preparing for it and ALL this will end in ONE day besides people would criticize every little thing forgetting how much time and effort I, my family, and my hubby's family made to make it look good and organized, when I do think in that way I feel really frustrated. I told you I'm not in a good mood you can tell.

I haven't seen my hubby for three weeks. GOD that is too much for me I really do miss him although I used to see him once in a week. You know it is a family rule that says "You are not allowed to see your husband for a month before the wedding!" lol in my case it is a month and a one week O_o. As my mother says he will really miss you if you did this. Okay let's see if he would ;P.

Okay I will convince myself that everything will go well inshallah and I do not care if people liked what we prepared and did as long as I'm happy with it right! I want to get back the 'Positive Me'!

Pray for me guys I really do need support at this stage of my life.

PS: I have added new blogs into my daily ones, miss fikrah hope that would make you smile ^-^.


here is a picture I took long time ago but that was an unforgettable day 'SMILES' =D

It's overrr..!

I have finaaaaaaaaaally finished my final project, I can't believe it!! I have been working on it for about four months O_o. I still have to present it on Saturday and TADA no more projects and going to the college. Though I'm still thinking of completing my study. I don't know but I just feel if I stopped for a year I would not have the enthusiasm to go to the university again!! I'm confused :/
I will ask about the major I'm interested in and will pray el est5ara. I don't want to end up regretting my decision.

Aside from that, tomorrow is my birthday, I'm turning t-w-e-n-t-y t-h-r-e-e hehe am so excited, I except any e-cards or comments on my blog or email lol ^-^

Recently, I have been so weak. I mean I feel dizzy all the time. Everybody is telling me that I lost weight. I'm also not sleeping well. I know the reasons but I can't help not thinking of what I did and what I still have to do. Although I plan for everything and I MEAN every little detail but I'm always afraid that I won't get things done on time. I think my head is going to explode at the end lol cuz seriously I'm tired of worrying about my study+wedding+preparations+my new life. I have bought some vitamins from the pharmacy cuz I don't eat well. I have talked to mum and asked her how can I change this thing in me!! She said it's difficult cuz it's '6eb3' fini but once everything ends I will be back to the normal crystal. As she said it is a good thing cuz I finish everything on time :/

Pleaaaaaaaaase pray for me, I might not be able to update but if anything excited happens I will tell you guys about it ;P

I'm going to a place that is FUNNNNNNNNNNN today, I will try to snap some pictures :D

Career Fair

I enjoyed our trip to the career fair at Dubai Trade Center. It was nice to see my classmates after such a long time. We were blabbering without stoping for a second lol. Each one of us was talking about their internship. There were some students who did not like the places they are working in and others did actually LOVED it. I guess nothing left and we will say goodbye to our university =)

I loved this idea created by Tanmia. We were excited about it and placed it on our arms hehe.

You should have seen mashallah the amount of students who came for the first day. I was wondering where these people will work!! I saw Sheikh Mohammed but I couldn't take a pic of him :/. Some companies were like okay get us your CV and GO AWAY! lol but others were welcoming us and giving us a breif description about the company and what it does. As always I was the first one who talks in our group and they were pushing me for every company we pass by. That is the problem for being a leader ;P. Until now nobody have contacted me, maybe it is still earlier as they need time to look through our papers.

I have seen like three or four girls who I have not seen for SUCH a long time. I got many hugs that day lol. It is really nice to meet them again. xoxoxo

I have been sick for the last couple of days. I do not know what is wrong with me! I can't eat and I'm always weak. I guess it is because I worry a lot about my final project and my wedding plus being frustrated every single day from the traffic I HATE IT!

okay enough talking I should get a nice sleep now Zzzz. Good night everybody =)

isn't that kayooot! But I would never touch it lol

My day

I did mention in my last post about an event is coming up soon and I believe some of you guys have guessed it. Yes it is my wedding. I decided to write about it after I found the countdown bar that you can notice at the beginning of the blog. As much as I sound excited, believe me I have gone through hard times while preparing for it. There were times were I cried not wanting it to happen. That was at the beginning where I still didn't know my hubby well. We have waited for so long as I wanted to finish my study first. Almost two years and a half! I believe marriage is not all about love, it is a big responsibility and you don't discover that until both of you live together. Love indeed is essential but it requires a lot more. I'm still anxious about my new life. I have been told that I don't look excited for my wedding lol maybe I don't show how do I feel about it 'rolleyes'. It starts to get more beautiful once you get to know each other well. I'm sure there are a lot more that I don't know about him.

I skipped the university today lol. I didn't feel like going. I feel useless ugh. I hate doing that but you know when you wake up early you feel like I want to sleep more. You decide not to go and after you get a long nice sleep you regret it hehe. I have to go tomorrow there is a trip to the career fair in dubai and who knows I might get more job interviews. Oh btw they called me regarding my first job interview. I said sorry cuz nor my family or my husband were convinced.

My older sister bought this ring for my other younger sister. I loved it. It has all swarovski crytsals. my tiny little niece decided to wear it aww. I don't know why her hand looks 'samra' fdait-ha :P

Befor it is too late!

I don't want to experience the feeling of guilt again for not saying what I truley feel towards the people I love and admire. Two years ago I have been trying to forget what happened, I knew it was too late to think about it because I couldn't bring him to life again. What hurts most is that he left this world and was a little bit angry at me. Actually, at himself and his family. At that moment I couldn't comfort him and say sorry we tried our best and we love you. Next thing I knew is that he left us the next day! I do really regret that but I don't want it to happen again because we have to learn from our mistakes. My mum was a little sick the past two days and I had all the memories refreshed again. What if I lost this precious person "La sama7a allah"! Have I showed her how much I love her and care for her! Have I been the person she always wanted to see! Have I listened to her when she wanted someone to talk to! I still cannot answer these questions. I believe I should take a further step toward my relationship with her. There must be a way to improve it. I don't mean that my relationship with her is very weak but I don't want to say it again "it's too late!". Everytime I feel like saying "I love you mum" or go and give her the tightest hug ever I feel like there are many barriers that I DO want to break. My sister always tells me: 'Do it once and you will find it very easy the next time!'.

--isn't mum wearing the nicest colours ever xoxoxo--

My project is going well il7imdilla. AND the best thing evveerrr is that I have returned to the college to complete my project 'yeppieee' :D. I don't have any classes I just go there and work on it but I should report to the place I worked in every week >_<'.

My preparations for the big event are on the right track. Let's just hope everything gets done on the right time. Stay tuned until I announce it officially 'giggles' ^-^

Nothing like being comofortable and satisfied with your life, family, study and things you have and own. il7imdilla thousands times 3ala ne3met el Islam :)

Say cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese lol

I don't see much of your comments peeps! Or is it a matter of comment on my blog and I will comment on yours ;P!?

I will leave you with these words from Sami Yusuf newest cassette, I was really touched by it

My head is not bare

And you can’t see my covered hair

So you sit there and you stare

And you judge me with your glare

You’re sure I’m in despair

But are you not aware

Under this scarf that I wear

I have feelings, and I do care

So don’t you see?That I’m truly free

This piece of scarf on me

I wear so proudly

To preserve my dignity...My modesty My integrity

So don’t judge me

Open your eyes and see...“Why can’t you just accept me?” she says “Why can’t I just be me?” she says

Time and time again, You speak of democracy

Yet you rob me of my liberty

All I want is equality

Why can’t you just let me be free?

PS: I will miss you :'(

I Miss....

I never thought I would miss the college that much. That day on my way to the university as I had a presentation I remembered all the memories I had with my friends. The first year was the easiest and the lovliest year. Second year was a bit difficult and I lost my brother, BUT I met my hubby. Third year was the most difficult one, I rarely sat with my family, but I can't forget how crazy we were "my classmates and I". We used to skip classess and we have done so many things that I can't believe myself when I remember it lol. Fourth year which is this year, it has been a good one also. My study was getting easier than the third year. There were for sure some bad memories and good ones also. The best one was getting engaged and the worst part is my internship and I can't wait longer to finish it UGH. >_<'

I miss the classes, exams, projects, deadlines. I miss getting worried for the exams. I miss not being able to sleep because I did not finish studying. I miss getting crazy in the class and making all the girls laugh while I remain silent. I miss getting good grades and knowing that my efforts were paid off. I miss having lunch with my classmates....

Will I make it to the end of this road??

I'm happy that I changed many things in myself toward some people :). I don't know why this happens everytime I want to update. Before writing any post I feel like I have so many things to talk about and once I start I forget everything lol. This is weird :P. There was some rain today actually some drops hehe. il7imdilla 3ala kil 7al.

It's all good!

It is weird how one thing can turn your mood 180 degree! I was frustrated, pissed off, stressed out from everything starting from my work, final project and my colleagues at work! But what happened really made my day :), even if it was for a short period of time but it made me think and thank god for it. I was being pessimistic for the last two weeks because of the work load and other things in my life.

I took some time on Friday and thought about the reasons and I found out that I can control all these things. Life is tough but the smart person here who can deal and satisfy himself with every problem and situation. What I did first is that I began thinking positively about everything and when anything happens whether it is a good thing or a bad one I thank God for it. Trust me follow this and you will feel content for the rest of your day. I also started being more serious about my prayers, reading qur2an and al athkar. Another thing, being more confident about how people or let's say certain people feel and think about me as well as being less sensitive and "picky". Lastly, note down the things I have to change in myself and begin working on it for two weeks until I get them fixed.

And "YOU" believe me I did not know that I can make "BOTH" of us the happiest people on earth. I did not know that it is in my hand and I can control it. All I knew is that I needed to be patient and more optimistic. I do not believe that it took me nearly four months to understand things better and have more faith in myself and you. I discovered that it doesn't revolve about "one" thing only it is more about sharing and caring. May god bless "You". I really have to take care of this gift 'Smile from ear to ear'. Heyyy thanks for the loveliiiiiiiiiiiiiest time :)

Other than that I feel like I'm ignoring my friends. I don't answer their phone calls and I don't call them back. I don't mean it really but I'm so busy these days that I hardly can manage my time. Anyhow, I have decided to meet them on Wednesday. I'm looking forward to see my friend's cutest daughter ^-^ aww.

Remember always thank god for everything even for the simplest thing in your life like being able to sleep because it is really a blessing.

Until the next update take care everybody :).

First job interview

I had my first job interview today and it went very well. I never thought the interview would be like this as the university told us totally different things. I guess it depends on the place you are applying to. I was very optimistic and it was an interesting interview. The lady was chatting with me and I felt like she is an old friend of mine. However, I'm a bit concerned about the place, but I told myself I should try and at least I would have an idea about job interviews. If they accepted me, then I would think seriously about it. Overall, I was very happy that I made the lady impressed ;p

If you have noticed on the left bar I have added coundowns to three important upcoming events. You can visit the link and create one for yourself. Very easy steps.

Unfortunately I haven't taken any pictures today, so just enjoy reading my useless entry lol.

I never understand why some people hide their feelings! I would never think you are a weak person if you tried to let it out one day. Believe me I will try as much as I can but I think you know I might fed up and treat you the way you treat me. I need part of your time and you can't always put me on the last of your list. You don't have the right to tell me you don't speak I want to sleep. How on earth would you want me to speak and you never gave me the time to! I appreciate all what you have done for me and I'm thankful to GOD that I have known you BUT that doesn't mean I can always control myself! Let's just hope that the coming days would be better and hey I can't give up on you! just remember that :)

AAAAAAAH I had to let it go, by the way I thought of adding a calendar to my blog but I felt it would be useless besides the script of it is very long and complicated ;P

Enjoy your weekend, give yourself some time and do not forget to sit with your family ;P and yeah if you are studying just leave everything for Friday night hehe ;p

Please people if you have any comment you can either comment here or email me at crystalxlady@gmail.com =)

At last I'm here =P

At last I decided to update my blog. I discovered that my younger sis knows that I have a blog. 5alait-ha te7lef iniha she doesn't tell anybody so I can be myself in here. She promised me but every time I wanted to update I felt like something is preventing me to do so.

Anyway so many things have been going on lately. I started my internship and it happened to be worst than I expected, but I managed to convince myself that they are only few months and I will be done. College environment is much more FUN. I miss the college and the classes. There at work you have to consider each word and action you do. I have started my final project, finished the first part and still there are two parts left. Wish me Luck.

I noticed that I like taking pictures of babies' hands. I love those creatures to death lol. They are tinnnnyyyy and innocent.

enough for today, I don't feel like writing. My mind isn't functioning well today :/

PS: Mum I wouldn't do it you know me well!

Maids

How well you treat your maids? I've heard a lot of stories recently. Some are Unbelievable. I know a girl died at age 6 allah yer7mha. She had cancer and it is all started when her maid did some sort of se7er est'3fer allah. Now her family is in a miserable situation. I always deal with them in a nice way but I don't think I would be able to trust them once I have children inshallah. I can't imagine my baby gets hurt from my maid. The problem is that they are babies, they don't know how to speak or explain what happen to them when their parents are not home. These stupid maids act nicely with them in front of us but god knows what they do behind us.

I have received this video by email. Check this link http://www.neethu.com/abbasiya. I nearly cried. I so wanted to hug this child and tell him that her mum is coming soon don't cry. Oh my god how could she hurt this little angel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be careful girls. I'd prefer taking my baby to a nursery rather than keeping him ALONE with the maid. If he is still few months old, I'd rather ignore everything and sit with him. I feel like crying after I saw this scene. I love babies to the point that you can't imagine and I hate seeing them hurt like this. ='(

I'm starting my internship next week 'YAAY'. I visited the place that I will work in. I hope everything will go smoooothly and I will get good grades. :)

Random Pics

People who use blogger, do you know how can I make the pictures I upload not clickable?

Kil 3am o into b5aiir

3eedkum embarak everyone o allah y3odeh 3laina inshalla. I know I'm a bit late but I was too busy to update besides I hate the connection it is too slow. I have to ask my dad about it. I think they have changed the speed of our DSL :/. Anyway tell me how was your 3eed? Mine was awkaay. First day I spent it at our house although we don't do that every 3eed but none of my aunts and uncles "dad's side" were here this 3eed. Allah yredhum b salameh o yetqbal 6a3et-hum. I missed my fav cousin she couldn't come I hate her lol. I woke up early prayed el fajer then mum said she can't go for el 3eed prayer. I checked my dad but he left early so I decided to go alone can u imagine that!? lol I drove alone it was a bit boring but once I heard Takbeeret el 3eed I felt happy and relieved :). I sat with my sisters and had lunch togther. They went out with their children but I didn't want to so I stayed and watched TV.

Second day was funnnn. I went to my aunt's house "mum's side" and everyone was there. I stayed until maghreb prayer then I had to leave because my hubby wanted to have dinner with me. We went out but ended up watching a movie at the cinema lol. It was too crowded and the movie was "ew" 6efs shwayeh "40 years old Virgin" it was a bit funny though. Then we went to Jumeira City to have some coffee. Today we are going to have lunch outside in the Barr probably.

I gave you full details of what I did lol. Tell how was yours! :)

Laterz~~

Question: Why the time passes so quickly when you are sitting with people you love??!!

إنا لله وإنا إليه راجعون

اللهم يا جامع الناس الى يوم لا ريب فيه اجمع ( مكتوم ) بنبينا محمد صلى الله عليه وسلم كما جمعت بين الروح والجسد

اللهم اغفر ( لمكتوم ) حتى لا يبقى من المغفرة شيء

اللهم ارحم (مكتوم ) حتى لا يبقى من الرحمة شيء

اللهم ارض عن ( مكتوم )حتى لا يبقى من الرضا شيء

اللهم اغفر ( لمكتوم ) عدد خلقك واغفر له مداد كلماتك واغفر له زنة عرشك واغفر له رضا نفسك برحمتك يا ارحم الراحمين

اللهم اني اسالك له الدرجات العلى من الجنة آمين . وادخله الجنة آمن . آمين واسالك له خلاصا من النار سالما آمين . وادخله الجنة آمن . ربنا لا تؤاخذنا ان نسينا او اخطأنا ربنا ولا تحمل علينا اصرا كما حملته على الذين من قبلنا سبحان ربك رب العزة عما يصفون وسلاما على المرسلين والحمد لله رب العالمين

Who Knows Tomorrow Could be YOUR Day!

Another boring day!

I KNOW university sucks but it is better than the holiday! at least I get the chance to meet my friends and learn new things ahaha look who is talking! Did I mention I'm a nerd that can get straight As but I skip university and don't bother myself with studying if I'm not in the mood! I remember when I was in grade 10 I got 95% average at the beginning of the year and at the end I got 88% lol stupid right! Simply because I felt grade 10 was difficult and I don't have to push myself too much!

I remember how everybody was disappointed because I didn't score in 90's when I graduated from school! I didn't study at allll even in the one month holiday I had. When I joined the university, the gurl who got 60% was the same as the girl who got 90%! so tell me where is the difference!! It is only the feeling you get when you first know about your result is different and maybe the gifts you get ;P

I don't know why am I talking about this issue! I'm bored today but I don't want to go out. I bought this book "Banat Al Riyadh" out of curiosity. Everyone was talking about it and since I have one month off I decided to give it a try. It was entertaining I have to say. I finished reading it in three days because once you start reading it you will feel like you want to find out the ending of this novel. I think the writer's message was clear for us "Khaleeji Girls". I believe she wanted to tell us not to get in these so called relationships with guys before marriage. If we want a "healthy" clean one we should wait until it is the right time. This is obvious from the character Lamees, the one who lived happily after she refused to start any relationship and got married to the man she loved but without telling him. Okay I think you will like this book, I found it in مكتبة دبي للتوزيع and costs Dh 40 lol. I will have to think about working in an advertising agency LOL!!

gotta run pray al ma'3reb!

uaeyah how could I forget adding you to my daily blogs!! I love reading your posts. I hope Ahmed is in a good health. I've added you :)

pinkie and kytheria thanks for linking me :)

PS: I hope it was a nice surprise, why I always think in that way!